MOMENT IN TIME AS ME

Remember me as the one who started it all and Remember me as the one who stayed committed to it all.

I often think about how i would like to be remembered. And there are plenty of things that I would love to leave behind as memories told to generations to come about who i was, but there is one I never want to be remembered by and that's a Quiter who always started something but never followed through with it.

We often give up too easily in life because of circumstances or situations and that shouldn't be the case , we should always allow setbacks to motivate us for epic comebacks that you can look back at and be like "Oh how grateful am I about that today because it allowed me to grow and accomplish more". I sometimes suffer from writers block because  of  where I am right now, I've focused more on situations that I'm facing now instead of allowing that to serve as motivation. I'm soo stuck in this downfall/setback that I'm currently in because I have somewhat surcomed to the idea of believing that no one wants to hear about pain and instead happiness , no one wants to read about how miserable your life is instead read of what's great and good about it. But what if there is someone out there who's in the same pigeonhole and needs uplifting like you know what I'm not alone.

J.cole once said "There's beauty in the struggle" he sure was right , success will come and you'll be able to be more appreciative of it because you know how bad it could be. Hang in there life is meant to have ups and downs, good and bad,setbacks and comebacks, blessings and lessons, and be grateful for all of it.  Get up and do something that will make a difference in somebody else's life, be the change you want to see. Nobody owes you anything in this life you need to get up and do it yourself. 

LIFE AS ME

LIFE AS I'VESEEN IT

Hello world, Let me reintroduce myself, my name is Asisipho Ndyamboti and i started this blog 3 years ago with the intention of inspiring the world but life as we know it happened. At the time of starting this i was excited and full of life,I had imagined everything being blissful and achieving all the goals that i had set for myself but challenges began to unfold.

I dreamt of taking over the world as a renowned media mogul like the well known mama Connie Ferguson ,mama Basetsana Khumalo all the way to Oprah Winfrey. But it just didn't happen , Like the old saying goes life's a bitch and every dog has its day.

At the age of 13 i was diagnosed with Chrohn's disease,i was operated on and life was good i carried on with school. At 23 I had a flare up and this time the disease came back really badly plus to top it all off i discovered that I was pregnant .

The was nothing that doctors could do because I had this little innocent child growing inside of me and I had to take the risk of taking chronic medication in hopes that it wouldn't harm the little one. In pain and constantly in and out of hospital as my condition got worse as baby grew each month inside of me I managed to conquer that and deliver my beautiful daughter Talitha (biblical name used to revive a little girls life "talitha cumi"jesus said and the little girl arose  ) .
But even after the birth of my child i was still ill.

Now 24 with a child, unemployed and still very sick i landed up in hospital  for 5 months straight with a couple of procedures and one big surgery. I missed a lot of first moments in my daughter life as you would imagine, but i kept fighting for my health in which i still am.

So to sum it up to you all its been a whirlwind 3 years but I'm still standing and in this for the long run.Life will pin you to the wall but always stay strong and firm and know that challenges are there to build you and make you strong,they are there to prepare you for all the blessings that are still to come in this thing called life,someone once told me that in order to know and understand your limits you need to be pushed to the very edge so that you know  what you are able to take and cannot take,we weren't made to break but to understand that we are stronger than we think we are.

Keep pushing and keep fighting. You can do it, you were made for this you will and cannot break. 

LIFE AS I'VE SEEN IT

Hi World

My name is Asisipho Ndyamboti,I am 23 years old and this has been a dream of mine, to one day open a blog of my own. To share my views on different topics, be it fashion,entertainment,news and life itself. As i open myself up to the world I trust that we will all learn a thing or two from this blog and continue to build, empower and grow from each and every post.

The name LEONORIA is a very meaningful,powerful and special name to me. Let me take you guys back. The name belongs to my mother,the WOMAN that gave life to me and throughout my life has been my source of strength,power,support and most importantly LOVE. Zanele being her first name and Leonoria being her second name given to her by her mother (Nozamile Ndyamboti) .Being from South Africa the name holds so much power because back in the day our grandmothers and mothers had to have an english name as South Africa was run by White government now known as the Apartheid era, therefore you had to have an english name. I chose to use her second name as a name for my blog not only for the obvious reasons but because that name to me represented so much Grace, Power, Humility and Love. and for that alone Thank You MAMA, You are a true Queen.

As a child I guess I always knew what i wanted to do, but with life and it's challenges you get into so many differnt directions that you end up loosing your way and in the process loose yourself and identity,direction is something that you will loose but it is important to quickly find yourself,find your path and stick to it and don't let anybody try and tell you otherwise. At times i feel like my mind never goes on shut down mode because I am constantly in my head thinking of different things,now i guess this blog will be my outlet. For the longest time i have always been asked, If you could describe yourself in one word what would it be, And i struggled to answer that, but now at 23 i now know the answer. VISIONARY, thats me. I am a Visionary, i have an active and creative mind, constantly recreating and thinking how I can change X,Y and Z as in literally, lol. I am always in conflict with my brain or should I say myself rather because i'm always in conversation with myself. At times it's very strange because you will be in a room full of people and then you just zone out and start thinking about your life and how you can achieve this and that,how you can rearrange someone's outfit,how you can change the decor in this doctors office that you are sitting in, VISIONARY thats what it is, if its a disease I have self diagnosed my self with it because I suffer from it terribly. I am passionate about the world of etertainment and arts, it moves me in ways that a 9 to 5 (office jobs) can't. It's a fast paced industry and allows your mind to be creative and think on the spot,not the routine work that drains you creatively and clusters your ideas. It's exciting, refreshing in sense that there's always something new everyday. it's basically the Speed of light,changes within a blink of an eye and I love it. It just never get's tiring.

I have been blessed with a mother that loves me enough to support my creative mind and ideas and I guess the reason why so many kids are stuck in our generation is because parents are so obsessed with the idea of a stable job, yes it pays, you get a basic salary every month but are you HAPPY. Are you fulfilled emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Someone probably reading this and thinking well happiness won't pay my bills. Well did you ever think that if i push this a little harder and grow, it might actually pay me one day, if I nature my creativity and be patient I might actually be paid for this, paid for doing something that you love and enjoy. I've always learnt that if you do something you love and are passionate about you will never live to work a day in your life. Every single talent/gift that you have was given to you by GOD, now do you think he would honestly give you something that wouldn't benefit you. God doesn't Bless you and curse you at the same time, he has a purpose for each and everyone of our lives because he took he's time creating us. Nature and protect your dream/creativeness and one day you will to wake up and be thankful that you were patient. Push until the very end, give it your all and stay positive. It's only a matter of time until you start seeing great results, remember its a race to the finish line and that's the only place were you will get your results. Stay in your lane, ALWAYS!!!.